AVAILABLE 2-14-2020!


THORN IN MY FLESH


It started some decades ago in my past

A drama in which I was unwillingly cast

Anxiety clouded my mind so fast

Crying alone, how long it would last

Days turned to weeks, 

then months, then years

Tried acting happy while choking back tears

Each day was getting more lost in my fears

Started to hate who I saw in the mirror

My heart would start to skip a few beats

Then I got sick every time I would eat

My body would shiver, I'd crank up the heat

Convinced myself that death I would meet

I felt so stressed I couldn't unwind

Searching for answers, but few i would find

Reclusive at times, so lost in my mind

Thank God for my wife, she was always so kind


Please God take this thorn

Take this thorn from me

Please God take this thorn

Come heal and set me free

Please God take this thorn

Take it out of me

Please God take this thorn

Not mine but your will be


I remember one year I hit a low

I begged the Lord please let me go

It wasn't time so He said no

Some answers soon He'd send me though

Like Paul prayed to remove his thorn

The body and the mind gets worn

The younger me I'd often mourn

Broken me I'd view with scorn

Sick one morning I soon did wake

I knew my Lord would not forsake

Counsel and His grace I'd take

A plan for mercy He would make

Even though my body fails

Through all the weakness strength prevails

My saviors' hands were pierced with nails

The risen Christ, in Him I hail


Please God take this thorn

Take this thorn from me

Please God take this thorn

Come heal and set me free

Please God take this thorn

Take it out of me

Please God take this thorn

Not mine but your will be


Oh please God take this thorn

Take this thorn from me

Please God take this thorn

Come heal and set me free

Please God take this thorn

Take it out of me

Please God take this thorn

Not mine but your will be


© 2020 Donald  Arthurs


INSIDE


Would you look inside me

Can you help me please

Its ripping at me

Come and set me free

Lord I must break

This sinful side

Lord I must tame

This selfish pride

My heart's been hard

Can you soften it please

My eyes were blind

Can you make me see

Lord I give up

My self has died

Lord I've found you

Your word's my guide


It kept ripping and tearing 

with thoughts so uncaring

And filling my head up with lies

No more twisting and turning 

or fears of me burning

I reach for your 

strength deep inside

All these years how I've 

fought and I've tried

I say I reach for your 

strength deep inside

Hey yeah deep inside

Hey yeah deep inside


Now with you alone

I can face my fears

You're all consuming

Choking back my tears

Lord I can shake

This bitter cold

Lord I can see

Your truth unfold

I've lived my life

Nothing seemed real clear

Heartache and pain

Year after year

Lord I can live

It's lost its hold

Lord I am free

You've saved my soul


It kept ripping and tearing 

with thoughts so uncaring

And filling my head up with lies

No more twisting and turning 

or fears of me burning

I reach for your 

strength deep inside

All these years how I've 

fought and I've tried

I say I reach for your 

strength deep inside

Hey yeah deep inside

Hey yeah deep inside


What's inside of me, now fades to you

The pain ran deep, but my heart's anew

As it dies in me I reach for you

The net stretched wide, no longer fall right through 


It kept ripping and tearing 

with thoughts so uncaring

And filling my head up with lies

No more twisting and turning 

or fears of me burning

I reach for your 

strength deep inside

All these years how I've 

fought and I've tried

I say I reach for your 

strength deep inside

Hey yeah deep inside

Hey yeah deep inside



© 2020 Donald  Arthurs


STRUGGLE


I struggle with desire

Of that which does inspire

Me to follow every move

Hanging on to every groove

To follow brings me pain

Closer to the flame

Only slowly will I share

Every thought and every care


Struggle 

Tearing at  the ropes that hold me down

Struggle

No one left to hear me make a sound

Struggle 

Can not bear to face the pain inside

Struggle

Nowhere else to find a place to hide

Struggle 

Chasing out the demons in my head

Struggle

Reaching out before I end up dead

Struggle

Choking back the tears that blind my eyes

Struggle

Please God will you save me from these lies


It starts to all unfold

Doing what I’m told

Time begins to fade away

Getting further every day

All the time I’ve lost

Wondering what it cost

Giving up reality

Now I dream perpetually


Struggle 

Tearing at  the ropes that hold me down

Struggle

No one left to hear me make a sound

Struggle 

Can not bear to face the pain inside

Struggle

Nowhere else to find a place to hide

Struggle 

Chasing out the demons in my head

Struggle

Reaching out before I end up dead

Struggle

Choking back the tears that blind my eyes

Struggle

Please God will you save me from these lies



Thoughts of fear and purpose

Only tends to hurt us

Do not bother, no I must

Hold on to the words I trust

To make a right decision

A steady cut incision

Cut directly in my mind

For the answers I must find 

No I must

No I must


Struggle 

Tearing at  the ropes that hold me down

Struggle

No one left to hear me make a sound

Struggle 

Can not bear to face the pain inside

Struggle

Nowhere else to find a place to hide

Struggle 

Chasing out the demons in my head

Struggle

Reaching out before I end up dead

Struggle

Choking back the tears that blind my eyes

Struggle

Please God will you save me from these lies



© 2020 Donald Arthurs


HERO


Alone I stand in shadow

Under darkened skies of grey

Am I a menace or a hero

Depends on who would say

I'm fighting for the truth I've known

And for peace is all I pray

My fear is that the seeds I've sown

Will grow to fall astray


For I'm a hero

It seems that every turn 

another scar I earn

Yes I'm a hero

As the bullets fly by 

before the sun will rise

Cause I'm a hero

Everyday I'm tempting fate 

but the end must wait

Yes I'm a hero

It's justice I cry and 

then I'll say goodbye


I clash with evildoers 

While others turn away

Not a bystander or viewer

I'm here to make you pay

To spill my blood or break my bones

My temper starts to fray

Through ringing tones 

and muffled groans

My courage will not sway


For I'm a hero

It seems that every turn 

another scar I earn

Yes I'm a hero

As the bullets fly by 

before the sun will rise

Cause I'm a hero

Everyday I'm tempting fate 

but the end must wait

Yes I'm a hero

It's justice I cry and 

then I'll say goodbye


For I'm a hero

It seems that every turn 

another scar I earn

Yes I'm a hero

As the bullets fly by 

before the sun will rise

Cause I'm a hero

Everyday I'm tempting fate 

but the end must wait

Yes I'm a hero

It's justice I cry and 

then I'll say goodbye

For I'm a hero


© 2020 Donald Arthurs


OVERTIME


When my head meets the bed, 

I'm so tired, nearly dead

The only thing I really want is sleep

I think of things I've read, 

and replay what I've said

Stirring, at every little peep

I try with all my might, 

to keep my eyes closed tight

A war between my consciousness 

and slumber

Every night it's a fight, 

with my brain out of spite

Try counting sheep, 

but I'd fixate on a number


When it’s bedtime,  

it should be my downtime

Instead it’s like it’s wartime

My mind keeps working overtime.   

When it’s nighttime, 

it should be my peacetime 

Instead it’s been a lifetime

My mind keeps working overtime.


I toss and I turn, 

sweet dreams is all I yearn

Another random thought 

just came to life

Heartburn or concern, 

my stomach starts to churn

I try not awakening my wife

I bow my head and pray, 

and finally drift away

Then start to have 

the craziest of dreams

A giant made of clay 

or a hungry lions' prey

Then I'm startled by my 

own nocturnal screams


When it’s bedtime,  

it should be my downtime

Instead it’s like it’s wartime

My mind keeps working overtime.   

When it’s nighttime, 

it should be my peacetime 

Instead it’s been a lifetime

My mind keeps working overtime.


Now I lay me down to sleep 

Why dear Lord are my thoughts so deep

Should I find rest for mercy’s sake

I pray oh Lord before it’s time to wake


When it’s bedtime,  

it should be my downtime

Instead it’s like it’s wartime

My mind keeps working overtime.   

When it’s nighttime, 

it should be my peacetime 

Instead it’s been a lifetime

My mind keeps working overtime.



© 2020 Donald Arthurs


A GLIMPSE OF HEAVEN


Amidst a dark and stormy sky

God’s light shown through 

and caught my eye

I saw a glimpse of heaven that day

When all had seemed to go astray

My life was suddenly placed on hold

While I listened to the truth He told

He sent His Son to pay the cost

So I no longer would be lost

I opened up and felt His grace

As tears of joy ran down my face

He cleansed my sins and made me free

He opened my eyes and made me see

He stilled the chaos inside my soul

And filled my thoughts and made me whole

I bowed before His awesome might

Not one thing wrong, but all was right

He said repent from my sinful way

For indeed He will return on judgment day




© 2020 Donald Arthurs


THE WORD OF OUR FATHER


The Word of our Father

He comes to save

Our sons and daughters

The Word of our Father

He sets us free

No longer collared


Sent his Son to save your soul

He's calling you

Now give Him control

The Word takes hold, there's one last goal

To follow through

And make you whole

Sent his Son to save your soul

He's calling you

Now give Him control

The Word takes hold, there's one last goal

To follow through

And make you whole


The Word of our Father

He comes to teach

Our sons and daughters

The Word of our Father

He has redeemed

Our sons and daughters


Sent his Son to save your soul

He's calling you

Now give Him control

The Word takes hold, there's one last goal

To follow through

And make you whole

Sent his Son to save your soul

He's calling you

Now give Him control

The Word takes hold, there's one last goal

To follow through

And make you whole


In the beginning was the Word

And the Word was with God

And the Word was God

The same was in the beginning with God

All things were made by him

And without him was not any thing made that was made

In him was life

And the life was the light of men

And the light shineth in darkness

And the darkness comprehended it not


Sent his Son to save your soul

He's calling you

Now give Him control

The Word takes hold, there's one last goal

To follow through

And make you whole

Sent his Son to save your soul

He's calling you

Now give Him control

The Word takes hold, there's one last goal

To follow through

And make you whole



© 2020 Donald Arthurs


HENRY


Once was this boy 

named Henry

He was consumed by 

fear and anxiety

He barely left his room, 

so filled with gloom

All tucked away, 

hidden from society

His parents at a loss, 

what to do with him

Little Henry's thoughts, 

were always so grim

So filled with dread, 

hidden under his bed

even hated the light so 

he kept his room so dim

Even in his dreams, 

Henry couldn't find peace

He'd close his eyes 

but the terrors 

wouldn't cease

Gasping for air from 

another nightly scare

Henry often cried 

for a mental release

Then one day there's a 

knock on Henry's door

A frightened little Henry, 

crept across the floor

He heard an old man's voice 

proclaim he had a choice

Open it up and soon 

he'd have his cure

Henry was tired of 

feeling so alone

Strangely he thought that 

this old man had known

Choking back a sob he 

reached up for the knob

Into his dark room a 

piercing light had shone

In walked the man his 

voice was very calm

He said he heard the prayers 

of Henry's loving mom

There was fire in his eyes, 

he told Henry to arise

The wisdom that he spoke 

flowed out like a psalm

He said fear not 

for I am with you

Henry didn't object, 

he knew his words were true

He obeyed what he said, 

was no longer filled with dread

And the power of his faith 

made little Henry new



© 2020 Donald Arthurs


DAWN


When I gaze upon your face

My troubles fade away

My heart is overwhelmed

With more than words can say

I can not help but stare

Into those precious eyes

Your beauty so enticing

My emotions start to rise

God has so much blessed you

You're filled love and grace

Your soft touch and gentle voice

I long for your embrace

Every time I'm with you

It always feels so right

To hold your hand and kiss your lips

I love to hold you tight


Longing for the dawn, heartache is all gone

A new day does begin, your love I will win

Right here by my side, forever be my bride

I give my love to you, I always will be true


When I opened up my heart

You came and made it full

It was the perfect match

Perfect for my soul

I often stopped to wonder

Would I ever love

I always looked for answers

To the Lord above

The times when we're together

The music that we share

The honesty between us

Shows how much we care

The happiness which fills me

Like blessings from above

My wife you are so precious

You are the one I love


Longing for the dawn, heartache is all gone

A new day does begin, your love I will win

Right here by my side, forever be my bride

I give my love to you, I always will be true


© 2020 Donald Arthurs


STATE OF MIND


Is understanding just a game

Hidden is my soul in shame

Calling out and no ones 

there to hear my cries

Reaching out but no one 

cares as I die

Can this be the road I choose

Slaving hard to pay my dues

Waiting for my chance 

to break free

When there's nothing 

left to take but me

Cower to a liege of pain

Wondering if my life is sane

No one even tries to stop me

As my mind keeps roaming, 

roaming free

Is life just a state of mind

Answers do I wish to find

Rusted shell and shattered heart

One-way road, my life departs


© 2020 Donald Arthurs


THE BOND OF BROTHERS


Such as hardened steel 

skillfully forged in the fire

It is a bond so strong, 

the likes will never expire

Through trials of pain, 

when darkness begins to envelop

If one brother falls, 

the other is there to lift him up

When divided and alone, 

the strength of one my fail

But when they are united, 

the enemy they will assail

There's a force so strong, 

and it's like none other

The force that's known 

as the bond of brothers


© 2020 Donald Arthurs

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